The Work Continues...

While on this treatment I can’t expect the medication to be the sole compound doing the work needed in order for my quality of life to increase.  This treatment is an intricate component in the removal of HCV from my physical body but there are other considerations to look at here. 

I understand when I am not well, no matter what it is, I am required to look at my physical, emotional, mental and spiritual self.  Rarely is it just one thing off balance.  In this case, I believe the virus and how it is affecting my body is influenced by my thoughts, emotions and beliefs. Everything is interconnected. Everything moves together.

I have been looking at some emotional issues that remain unresolved - that I have been toting around with me for a few years following a traumatic time in my life. Some may say this isn’t the time to be dealing with such issues.  I believe this IS the time to work through these matters.

Over the past 16 weeks I have started doing good work in this area.  I have to admit – I am not proud of some of what I am seeing. But this isn’t the point.  The point is that I am no longer ignoring the things that needed my attention for some time now.  

Like meditation, no one is going to knock on my door and offer to do this work for me. 

I have allowed unsettled emotions to fester and spread like the virus in my body. They have also caused damage along the way.  Unlike the hepatitis C virus, there is no medication that is going to clear them up for me.  This work has to come from me.

So, I go slowly and in a gentle way.  I talk to qualified individuals whom I trust.  And I do my homework while I am planting in the garden, writing in my journal, or meditating.  I seek out things that bring me happiness and peace. I am moving past the individuals who demand and take what is not offered to them and I am surrounding myself with people who are kind, compassionate and loving.  

I smile at the goodness in my life… and I continue to do the work necessary.

Until next time,

Deborah