Fridays - What Brings You Happiness?

I’m a day late with this entry and I apologize to those of you who check this blog each day.  Thank you for your patience and understanding! It was a day of nursing some symptoms and not putting my energy elsewhere. So…here goes!

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Lately, I find myself waking up in the morning feeling less than my usual self.  Intellectually, I know it is due to the effects of the drugs pumping through my system but my body doesn’t readily accept this.  It just wants to crawl back under the warm cozy down comforter and sleep for another hour. 

Before my body has time to give into this craving the second round of the alarm goes off reminding me there is no ‘time off’ on this schedule and I’d better get my butt out of bed for the morning doses of meds.  This is my reality for the next 45 weeks and if I am going to get through it I need to work on a few things.

Right now I am finding I’m feeling stubborn and resentful towards the fat intake, the lack of sleep and the inflexibility of the schedule.  Most of all my mini meltdowns are the outcome of my frustration over the fact that I just don’t have the energy to maintain the lifestyle I have been accustomed to. 

So, if I can’t push the current…then I need to go with the flow and find a way to create my own happiness while doing so.

How am I going to do this?  I’m going to start by reminding myself each day that my happiness and goals do not need to go on hold just because I’m on this treatment.  I’m going to work on something that is meaningful to me, something creative that will bring me happiness over the next year.

My sons have asked that I put another album together.  I have enough material that I’ve written over the past decade.  This will be the ideal project to work on and a healthy catalyst to get me motivated in the mornings.
 

For me, the album is a good choice.  I can take my time, I don’t have to stick to a ridged schedule and in the end I’ll have something I can continue to build on.

So I ask you this…”What are you directing your energy towards?  What are you creating in your life that brings you happiness?” 

~ Happiness is ideal; it is the work of the imagination. ~ Marquis de Sade

Deborah